爱情，原来是可以被分开的词。爱失去了，可以被找回和取代。情却远远都留在心中成为心中的烙印。有些东西是远远都不能被遗忘，它只能被放下。在深夜一个人的房间里，会不小心的勾起心中的那一个旋。暗恋原来可以和恋爱一样痛。有人说爱情就像一本乐谱，里面应该有各式各样的曲风，抒情带表甜蜜，摇滚代表刺激等。这样的乐谱才是有趣的。如果乐谱里只有抒情曲风的歌曲，那这就不是爱情。夜里被勾起的回忆也许是甜的也许是苦的但这是让我们成长的回忆。眼泪的流下代表一切的结束，擦干眼泪，代表一切都成为过去。世上只有亲情是无可被取代的。无论发生什么事，亲情都会是最坚强的后盾。。。

累了。。。

这一刻，我的心跳就真的好像要没有了。。。今天的考试不是很好。。。不过我会继续努力。。。告诉我，我该怎么做？？？最近我才知道原来那些每天在你面前扮好人的人是最可怕的。。。世上最痛最毒的箭是来自自己朋友。。。那个某某某，真的希望你能告诉我，为什么你那么的恨我？？？恨到要暗箭伤人。。。

该收拾一切...

嗨，找不到读书的心。今天不管如何都要读书了。希望我能好好的读书。

对不起...我不说了...

原来小小的嘴巴，它的杀伤力却是如此的惊人。最近我发现我的嘴越来越不像话，每天都得势不饶人。意图把每个人损到体无完肤。什么时候开始我的嘴巴变得如此。我开始知道迟早这张嘴巴会为我带来祸害。我想改但还是迟了一步。今晚fire drill的时候，我这张嘴终于得罪了人。我好后悔，将心比心，如果今晚我被损，我也会生气。对不起，任凯，我不说了。请你不要放在心上。谢谢你让我上了宝贵的一课。让我下定决心改掉这一切。

对不起，那些曾经被我那嘴伤过的人。

嘴贱祸口，人伤心口。。。

我明白你们的感受。。。

对不起，我真的不说了。。。

累...

累了，真的累了。这学期的最后的两个星期真的忙死了。去完了Gunung Jerai的生活营后，我就很忙。为了Test,我连续两天凌晨5点起身。Test 完了后还要忙着Mini Project。还好现在都已经做好了，所以才有时间在这里。不过下星期还有两个test要考。等一下，我就要重回战场。有时真的想放弃所有的一切，但是一些原本就落在肩膀上的担当不能说放下就能放下。为了这些担当，我必须坚强的走下去。

如果一年不见一个人，我们会忘记他或她的脸吗？是不是想一个人就一定要时常见到他或她？

人就是犯贱，一生都在追求不属于自己的东西，搞得自己偏体麟伤，应该学会放下。

别了，以前的回忆。。。。。。。。。。。

Leaving...

Finally,a short 10 days holiday is going to end soon...I am going to leave Bintulu about 10 hours later...Although this holiday seen very short,it was one of the best holiday that i had ever past in my life at this moment...Sing k twice in a week...Celebration of my 21st birthday...All this things had been done in my short 10 days holiday...I promise i will become strong in order to fight with all the challenges that i am going to face when i go back to my study...Thank for the comments that had been given by my friends...I promise i will do my best...Thanks to all my friends who had accompanied me in this short holiday...I will miss you all when i am in university...

21岁的...

21，一个我从小就希望能够赶快到达的岁月。赶快的摆脱父母的约束。一瞬间，它就来到了。我发现我并不希望这天的到来。因为我明白过了这一天后，我的肩膀上的重量变重了。以前那无忧无虑的我已经成了过去。我不能再像以前一样的孩子气。21岁真的带来自由？非也，它带来的是无形的锁扣，紧紧的锁着你，告知你要承担的责任。当然，21岁也带来了喜乐，他证明了我的人生经验又更上一层楼。我要爬上属于我人生的私人舞台，展现着我所拥有的一切。好期待噢。。。

21岁，它让我感受到原来我并不孤单，我还有我的家人，还有一群好友为我庆生。哈哈，好感动喔。。。

21st birthday...

21岁了，好难忘的一天，好友们费尽心思为我庆祝这人生重要的一天。地点在M BOX。好开心，真的好开心。第一次感受到变成cream man的感觉。谢谢你们，真的很感谢你们为我预备的一切。我永远都会记得这一天。在此也要感谢所有来自朋友的祝福。谢谢。唯一遗憾的是没有得到那个我最期待的祝福。。。

好久好久没有写部落格了，这两个月过的好累好累，先是大学关闭因为H1N1。然后每天都要对着不会教书的教授（也许是我笨吧）。每天的上课都感到好多余。看见大家的TEST考得都很棒，唯有我考得很差。不是我不努力，我用了大部份的时间去预备奈何所得到的却是如此的结局。是我太笨了吗？还是我完全没有天份。我真的好累好累，这一场四年的战是如此的漫长。好想放弃但我已经没有退路，我能做的只有咬紧牙根坚强的打下去。看见好兄弟们都找到了他们的另一半，好为他们开心。同时也为自己感到悲哀。原本以为之前努力得来的是我一身的骄傲，但是到了现在才知道自己原来什么都没有。有谁能给我一些意见吗？我要找回以前那个无忧无虑的“陈祈裳”。

Celebrating Birthday...

OUR BILL
16 SUSHI WITH WASABI
ME & FRIENDS
SHASIMI

TAO Japanese Restaurant

15 july...We ate at TAO,a japanese restaurant located at AUTOCITY Penang...We went there by using three car with 16 people...Each person pay about RM50.00 and you can eat as many as you can...No time limitation...The only limitation is how big is your stomach???We reached there about 6.30pm and stayed untill 10 pm somehing...Enjoy the fish,sushi and others...Total amount of money we had paid was RM856.75...

原来·...

刚才做了一个好笑的夢，夢到妳来到我的家.告诉我妳已经有男朋友了而且妳还要到美国去找他.天哪,这是哪门子荒唐的夢.如果这发生在现实生活里,这一切就好像妳拿了一只锋利的匕首刺进我的心...醒来后才发现原来要忘记一个人是何等的困难...强逼自己忘记对方但是她的背影和脸蛋却时常不经意的出现在脑海里...这就叫病毒吗???原来现在的我还没能忘记妳噢...

Unlucky

aiaiai,i get attack by "charlie"...So fast,only stay for 3 days niah...Sianz jor...Last night in my room,me and my roomate have caught about 30 "charlie"...Don't know how many time i will get attack by that "charlie"...damn sianz leh...Want to write blog also have to wait after 12.00a.m. The blogger website blocked by description pornography...Today also failed to take Japanese Course...Me and my other three school mates are force to drop it...So sianz,really hope that all this bad luck can leave me as soon as possible...

Tune Hotel (LCCT)

Main Suis
Room

Special Door

Bath Room

2 july,finally i reach Kuala Lumpur in order to continue my study at Penang...That night i stayed at Tune Hotel(LCCT)...The hotel fee is very cheap,it is only about RM14.00 per night...If you purchase air-conditioned service,you had to pay RM13.49 for 12 hours...So,it mean our total fee is about RM30.00 shared by three person...The room is incredibly small...It is only have a small corridor for you to walk...Bath room is ok but it has a special door which cannot be lock...So,i recommend that a gril should not stay with a boy in this hotel...Unless both of you are very close...The main suis inside the Tune Hotel is quite high tech...When you put in the card,it will start countdown the time...

First night at hostel...

First night at hostel...After cleaning my room and get flourish by universiti which made me to walk for so long,i am so tired allready...Now even felt alone and cannot online...What the fuck!!!(sorry so rude)...Write all this at cyber cafe...Long time didnt come here liao...Now 2 hours only RM1.20 niah loh...Cheap untill lausai like what my friend say it...This is a brand new sem so i already set three target...I believe i can archieve it...

1)Get the better result.
2)Forgot it and shut down my feeling.
3)Finally,become slim.

Haha,third target sound crazy but i will try to make it...Now starting to miss my home town liao...
My beloved family,my best friends,kampua and other...Sorry to my family,this time i did not use enough time to accompany you all...I will do it in my bext holiday...This holiday is not a good holiday for me...I had all the sweet and bad feeling inside this long holiday...Dont wan to say it anymore...just let it pass...

Leaving...

Finally,my long long holiday end already...I am reluctant to leave now...However,i still have to leave for my future...Leaving my family and friend at hometown...A long holiday,i had done a lot of wrong things...So i want to take this opportunity to say sorry for what i had done...I will use this coming sem to perform the promises that i had made...I believe leaving is for next meeting...Bye bye to my hometown...

爱...

爱是什么？？？

爱是一种美妙的情感，

爱让人有幸福的感觉，

爱让人有被感动的心，

爱让人对未来有期待，

爱让人对以后有梦想，

爱让人很在乎着彼此，

爱让人很愿意的付出，

爱让人变得无所不能，

爱也让人变得盲目，

爱也让人变得自私，

爱也让人变得丑陋，

爱也让人伤透了心，

爱也让人意志消沉，

爱也让人失去一切，

爱也让人遗忘朋友，

什么是爱？？？

这是普天下不管是情侣或单身所要问的问题，

无奈应该没人认真的想过这个问题。

爱是什么？？？

这完全要视个人的观念而定。

有人说爱是甜美的，

有人说爱是痛苦的，

又有人说爱其实什么都不是。

你觉得呢？？？

恋人间的甜蜜，

曾经的山盟海誓，

曾经的海枯石烂，

在恋人们分手后，

什么都变得不是。

今天的你是恋人吗？

你真的明白什么是爱吗？

你为你的恋人做了什么？

你真的爱他或她吗？

爱一个人应该无私的为他或她付出一切，

爱一个人应该接受他或她的一切好和坏，

爱一个人应该给他或她所有最好的一切，

爱一个人不一定要拥有他或她，

爱一个人只要知道此刻的他或她是快乐，幸福就足够了，

爱一个人也要保护他或她不受伤害。

不管今天的你是爱或被爱的人，

你都是这世上最幸福的人，

能找到你爱的人或爱你的人是一种缘份，

一生中能遇到你爱的人或爱你的人是很困难的。

无奈，

爱是两人的事，

它靠的不是强求

它不是跟据付出来衡量，

在爱情里是没有所谓天枰，

它靠的是两个字缘份，

少了一个缘，

少了一个份，

那就不再是爱。

所以现在的你是幸福的吗？

还是你正哀愁着？

如果你是幸福的，

就要好好的把握现在的一切。

如果你正哀愁着，

没关系，世界永远都会有一个你的乌托邦。

不管结果如何，

如果你爱一个人就一定要让他或她知道一切，

他或她有权知道他们被爱，

爱经不起等待，

不要等到有一天心跳突然停此后才后悔没说出口。

要懂得把握，

要懂得珍惜，

付出不一定要有回报，

爱一个人不一定要拥有他或她，

但是如果拥有一个你爱的人就一定要全心全意的爱他或她....

给朋友的...

朋友，什么是朋友。朋友在困难时都会给于帮助。在这次长假里，我感受到了朋友的重要。好几次的情绪崩溃都是靠朋友的鼓励和支持熬过来的。对我来说朋友就好像生命里的空气。没了朋友的人就好像生活没了气息，孤独的在人生的道路上游荡着。A,M,I和E感谢你们这几个星期的陪伴和支持。当时颓废的我也许让大家担心了。抱歉，我保证以后不会再因为这样而浪费生命和时间。希望以后我的生命旅程都会有你们的陪伴。人生得一知己死而无憾。我还有几个知己呢。哈哈。最后送你们一首“朋友”但需要你们去我的playlist去播放。

夜深了，四处都平静了下来。我虽然睏了但这颗脑袋却没有平静下来的意识。每次那不舍得的心情不禁的如浪潮般的涌了上来。但这一次却是如此的强烈。也许是这一次接触的比往常更多。暂时的离去也许是好事，让我有机会把一切都从记忆里抹去。我对自己说该放手了。为了自己，也为了那认为我不能的好兄弟，这次决对是真的。把目前的一切寄托在学业和未来看来是我唯一能做的。。。此时的放手是为了准备迎接下一次。。。

Last night i go to sing k with my freinds for the first time at Bintulu...So tired and i also realized that i don't have any potential to become a singer...zzz...However i still enjoy that...

20/6/2009...I will remember this day in my heart...I am not a coward guy...But now i had to accept everything...This is because i had chosen to let you knew my feeling...I get the result i expected...Perhaps i still got chance or i dont have any chance...All this is no more important for me...Maybe just let it pass or store you in my heart,this is the choices that i had to make now...I am sure i cannot forgot you at this moment but in future i cannot sure...

累了，累了。。。坚持了这么久终于要放下。。。好讨厌这种还没打战就被打败的感觉。。。也许当初就不应该如此的坚持吧。。。我这些年的坚持是值得的吗？？？我的想信又是对的吗？？？或许从没遇见过你会是最好的结局。。。叶子虽然被无情的风吹落但是最后的风却能感受到叶子离去的孤独。。。也许又或许我的离去丝毫不会让人察觉。。。如国说我在一部20集戏剧里的角色是什么，我想应该是出场不到一分钟的超级配角。。。此时的我应该好好想想我究竟是怎样的人，我要的又是什么。。。好陌生噢。。。镜子里的还是我吗？？？不过我很相信这种挫败感会成为我人生的坦克车让我越过凹凸不平的人生。。。因为我相信我终会找到属于我人生的乌托邦。。。

I am a coward guy???Can anyone tell me the answer???Perhaps i am brave in almost all the field that i participate in but i am sure that i am a coward guy in love...Don't ask me why???This is because i am also looking for the answer now...Maybe i think too much before i made my decisions...Somebody say this is a good habit...Believe me,this is absolutely bad habits if you are going to use it in making all the decisions about love...You will lose everything when you think too much in love...For people who don't know how to made decisons like me,you must try to make it base on you feeling...Sometimes i keep thinking that if i am not coward then what will happened to me now???Haha,i still haven't get the answer untill now...

It had been long time since my last posts...After finish my final exam,i go back to my hometown...Work as a part time worker at my hometown mini market...I expect to have a good working environment.Unfortunately,all this didn't happened...My salary still remain as before while some of my friend's salary have been increase...Once again,i had been treated unfair...However,i still enjoying a good holiday right now with my best friend and my belove family...My 2nd sem result come out and i get a 3.54 which mean i get a dean...All the hardwork i had done is worth!!!!!

   Relaxing and having dinner at Auto City Penang

      KL wangsarmaju

         BBQ at Bukit Mertajam

                   My ee schoolmates

Venue of EE night Jawi Golf Club,Nibong Tebal,Penang

 The day during ekspo jualan

 My stall in ekspo jualan

Today really a great morning after finished my 2nd semester final exam...I had dreamed today for long long time as this semester really short and busy...However,after finishing this exam,i found out that i got nothing to do just like whaty have been say in chinese "wu tou chang yin"...Suddenly felt that i lost my direction in my life...Perhaps it maybe just a temporary feeling,i really don't like this kind of feeling...Now,what i can do is just staying inside my hostel play with my laptop.Next semester maybe i don't have a place to stay.After my universiti get the Apex status,every system had change from the way to take students to the university to the criteria to stay in hostel for 4 year...Aiaiai,perhaps everything around me had changed,i am still the same as before...Now,looking forward to go back to my hometown after a few months had been here...

Introduction

Hello,i am sure this is the first time you visit my blog...First of all,welcome to my blog...I would like intro myself...My name is Dennis...I am studying at University Sains Malaysia now...